Thursday, May 04, 2017

Painful practice

PP - Painful practice.

I have a fantasy: It is that I make a very awkward movement and from one second to the other the back pain caused by my sacroiliac joint is gone from one second to the other. Till this fantasy becomes true, I do what is possible. From time to time I curse, I also motivate myself. You don't give up, I tell myself. I'm not a couch potato and I don't want to become one.

I practice very slowly. But I practice: Hallelujah.

Today back bending was my focus. Before the intensive asanas ustrasana, laghu vajrasana and kapotasana I do the split pose. It lengthens my front side. This allows me to get so much deeper into the back bending asanas than without this exercise. I repeat kapotasana against the wall. It helps me to adjust myself. I think a pose should feel good. In the beginning stretching pain might be felt, but after a while of deep breathing the body should relax and feel good.

I feel like a hero, because I didn't use the pain as an excuse not to practice. Every practice makes the next one easier.

Nutrition is as important as the practice. Both influence each other. These days I try to eat protein at my two main meals that is breakfast and lunch. Today I had soy yogurt with almond puree and the best strawberries I've eaten for a long time for breakfast. My mother-in-law is still here as our guest. I'll go to an Indian restaurant with her for lunch. I know already that I'll order the black lentils. Lentils are also protein. The huge asset of protein is that one feels full for a long time. In addition it's necessary to build muscles.

Oh, I can't wait. I'm so looking forward to my next practice.


Bettina said...

Hi Ursula,
I've followed your struggle for quite some time now. I can relate to almost all of it as I had a very similar back issue. Of course it is good that you practice. But what I cannot understand is why you continue practicing Ashtanga. I mean it is what caused your problem in the first place. Why do you expect it to vanish while you keep performing the problematic movements again and again. Please just stop it. I strongly recommend that you practice Matthew Sweeney's moon sequence and only that for several months. It solved my issue completely. Of course it seems like a great loss, but what you can gain is a healthy back. Please consider this!

Ursula Preiss said...

Dear Bettina,

Thank you very much for reading and sharing your experience.

Ashtanga yoga was not the cause of my back issue!
The cause was to practice 2 and a half hours every day for 2 years and I did every day the same without any variation. My not so young body got exhausted by this. This was way too much what I did. Perhaps the cause was also to put always the left leg first behind the head, then the right leg in kurmasana. This might have created an imbalance. Again, I don't think that it was Ashtanga yoga, but the wrong performance that caused this block. No variations, no individuality is allowed these days in classes. Most teacher are inexperienced and strict. This is why I practice at home to adjust my practice.
I don't do the same these days. I do second series mainly. And I practice variations, if necessary. Nevertheless my issue is not solved.

I have the moon sequence in front of me. That you're healed completely is very seductive to try the same. Perhaps it helps in my case, too. It doesn't seem as a loss, not these days.
So tomorrow the moon sequence is on my schedule. I'll see how it feels. Then I'll continue with this series for another month. Please send some prayers that this method helps twice. Minimum. I'll write about my experience.

I hope all is well with you!