I know all the tricks, all, not one worked today. I didn't practice Ashtanga yoga this morning. At 2pm I had another appointment at the dentist. I had a few important activities on my list this morning, this is true. All were done. There would have been time for a yoga practice. It didn't happen. My mind was wandering and busy with my teeth.
Today the amalgam of the teeth of the left upper jaw should be removed. It lasted 30 min. As always I got an injection. This one there didn't hurt. Awful is the sound of the drill. This sound enters the brain. I keep my hands relaxed and focus on the breath. Yet the sound of the drill is intrusive.
When the left upper jaw was done the dentist wanted to go on with the treatment. I needed a break of 10 min.
Another injection. The injections at the lower jaw are worse as they must meet the nerve. Oh oh oh oh oh, I moaned. Finally the fluid was in my body. We waited. The tongue, the lips and the right side must become numb. A strange feeling. 5 min we waited, then I could hear again how the drill unclenched the amalgam. The sound is the worst during the treatment. Afterwords it's the dumbness.
I walked home after the treatment. Movement is good, I think. Always.
I called E to ask him to do grocery shopping. I had not the energy anymore. The dumpiness disappears, I know, yet it will last a few hours. To go horizontal was my wish.
Now only 1 tooth is left with amalgam.
We had dinner and now I sip red wine and we had marzipan as a last sweet end of a salty, spicy dinner. Wine and sweets are the quick fix, the fast drugs. I'm enjoying them right now.
A downward facing dog for A in Canada to keep her motivated to do the tiniest step in the wished direction on a daily basis. Good luck. Much doing, not so much thinking will help. A bit of humor cannot be bad either. Wink.