Wednesday, April 24, 2013
He wants to pull me 10 teeth
Yesterday I got the diagnosis. The dentist showed me the 3D X-Ray pictures. I try to make it short. Over the decades bacteria have eaten up the bone above and below my back teeth. The teeth are held only by flesh these days. I've periodontosis in the final state. There is still a bit bone and this is my luck. This allows to rebuild the bone and this allows to set in implants. These implants I can have till the end of my life, also when I shall become 109 years old.
If I won't do anything in the next years the teeth will fall out. There is nothing stable that can hold them. By then the bone is probably gone and it's no more possible to set in implants:
- Then I can remain toothless.
- Or I can get a set of teeth to take out. This I want to avoid!
- Another possibility then is to take bone from the hips. The disadvantage: In 30% those people get walking issues later.
The young doctor from the last time had mentioned already that one must probably pull a teeth. So yesterday I went to the dentist with the conviction: they won't pull me a single tooth. Yet the facts convinced me. It's not avoidable. Also teeth can be ill, also if this doesn't come with pain.
It was a shock. 10 teeth!!!! Adrenalin shot in my blood. I became euphoric. I walked home, full of energy. I was even enthusiastic. I drank wine at home, yet this didn't bring me down.
The next year means pain for me, psychologically and physically. The treatment will last one year. I shall be happy afterwards. I hope this is true.
No I don't want a general anesthesia during the treatment, only a local one. I want to realize what's happening with me. My ability to focus and to concentrate and to relax shall help me through the show.
Yes, I do have angst. I know that my fears have still no experience as basis, they are thoughts. I don't know yet how it feels to get pulled 5 teeth, I'm naif. The time before the second treatment will be the nightmare. Then I'll know what expects me. One session will last about 4 hours. The dentist: "We work fast."
The woman at the reception tried to calm me. She told me success stories and how happy clients are who have done this treatment. Yet I was so euphoric due to the adrenalin, I was like on drugs.
E's answer after having informed him about the result of the diagnosis: "Oh God."
Yesterday FC Bayern and FC Barcelona played. It was not broadcasted on free TV. So I went out to a sports club. There I sat among young men. If 3% of the fans were women, this would be an optimistic estimate. I chanted with the crowd. My still water was tap water. I sweated like in a sauna. And I forgot my teeth problem. The Bavarians scored 4 times. What a success. I was distracted from my teeth issue. Mission accomplished.
I cannot remember anymore that I've switched off the alarm clock. I missed to go to a Mysore class. I'm thinking: Is this really the best I can do for me teeth, for my mouth health? I know it is. I also know that I've found the best dentist for this. These treatments are his strength, his focus. He's an expert here.
The sun is out. I consider to go out for a breakfast. I know a cafe that has a huge roof terrace. There I can imagine myself right now.