Wednesday, April 24, 2013

He wants to pull me 10 teeth

Yesterday I got the diagnosis. The dentist showed me the 3D X-Ray pictures. I try to make it short. Over the decades bacteria have eaten up the bone above and below my back teeth. The teeth are held only by flesh these days. I've periodontosis in the final state. There is still a bit bone and this is my luck. This allows to rebuild the bone and this allows to set in implants.  These implants I can have till the end of my life, also when I shall become 109 years old.

If I won't do anything in the next years the teeth will fall out. There is nothing stable that can hold them. By then the bone is probably gone and it's no more possible to set in implants:
- Then I can remain toothless.
- Or I can get a set of teeth to take out. This I want to avoid!
- Another possibility then is to  take bone from the hips. The disadvantage: In 30% those people get walking issues later.

The young doctor from the last time had mentioned already that one must probably pull a teeth. So yesterday I went to the dentist with the conviction: they won't pull me a single tooth. Yet the facts convinced me. It's not avoidable. Also teeth can be ill, also if this doesn't come with pain.

It was a shock. 10 teeth!!!! Adrenalin shot in my blood. I became euphoric. I walked home, full of energy. I was even enthusiastic. I drank wine at home, yet this didn't bring me down.

The next year means pain for me, psychologically and physically. The treatment will last one year. I shall be happy afterwards. I hope this is true.
No I don't want a general anesthesia during the treatment, only a local one. I want to realize what's happening with me. My ability to focus and to concentrate and to relax shall help me through the show.

Yes, I do have angst. I know that my fears have still no experience as basis, they are thoughts. I don't know yet how it feels to get pulled 5 teeth, I'm naif. The time before the second treatment will be the nightmare. Then I'll know what expects me. One session will last about 4 hours. The dentist: "We work fast."

The woman at the reception tried to calm me. She told me success stories and how happy clients are who have done this treatment. Yet I was so euphoric due to the adrenalin, I was like on drugs.

E's answer after having informed him about the result of the diagnosis: "Oh God."

Yesterday FC Bayern and FC Barcelona played. It was not broadcasted on free TV. So I went out to a sports club. There I sat among young men. If 3% of the fans were women, this would be an optimistic estimate. I chanted with the crowd. My still water was tap water. I sweated like in a sauna. And I forgot my teeth problem. The Bavarians scored 4 times. What a success. I was distracted from my teeth issue. Mission accomplished.

I cannot remember anymore that I've switched off the alarm clock. I missed to go to a Mysore class. I'm thinking: Is this really the best I can do for me teeth, for my mouth health? I know it is. I also know that I've found the best dentist for this. These treatments are his strength, his focus. He's an expert here.

The sun is out. I consider to go out for a breakfast. I know a cafe that has a huge roof terrace. There I can imagine myself right now.


Ράνια Μ. said...

I find it unbelievable. 10 teeth? But I think it is for the best! I wish you all the best! The pain will be easily forgotten after a while! This is always it!

Alles Gute!

Anna said...

Oh dear, what a shocking diagnosis for you... At least you have a world class specialist dentist and not some idiot who wants to take the easiest route so I would trust him with the implants. I agree with you; I would not want a set of dentures.

You used to write a bit about your front teeth and your resentful feelings about those not being looked after in your childhood. I felt the same way about my 'snaggle' tooth at the side of the front teeth and wondered why my parents didn't get a brace for me? Well, I've just had the healthy tooth filed down and am waiting for a crown to be fitted. Now my teeth are more or less straight. Teeth - what an expense physically and emotionally!

Ursula Preiss said...

Finally I'm happy that the dentist told me the truth. I will lose (!) my teeth faster than I can think if I don't act.
Times have changed of course. At my youth one didn't care so much about teeth.
Smiling because you remember my front teeth. :) Yeah, it's an ongoing tragedy. Teeth issues are not life-threatening, yet healthy theeth can better the life quaility.
The next 12 months will be hard.

Ursula Preiss said...

Yes, Rania, you're right, I'll forget about the pain.

Birgit said...

I feel with you! I have some teeth problems and the fears and worries about them are so present in my life. I wish you all the best and from what you said it seems that implants would make a lot of sense. Look into all the details surrounding implantation and maybe the most anti-inflammatory diet that you can eat in the months before you begin. Perhaps look at resources about what time of the moon cycle is best for healing and see if you can plan your course of action around this at all. Sending emotional strength and all the courage you need. Warm greetings from Italy. Birgit. x

Ursula Preiss said...

Thank you very much, Birgit.

I know teeth are a rather private issue. Yet the tips and encouragements I get via my blog helps to get through it.

MJ Donnery said...

I've had my own set of dental problems over the years(4 root canals!)so I can relate.
You are a fit person so you'll probably be able to handle it better than most.
Stay strong, you'll get through it.

Ursula Preiss said...

Thank you, Mary. The word root canal tells me a lot. Oh my. Yeah, I know I'm not the only one with teeth issues.

Indeed, I think it is an advantage that I'm healthy in general. And I use to heal fast. Might this help here, too.

Kitharo said...

That's shocking and I think dentist problems are (besides back problems) on of the worst health issues you can have.

And you're a lot braver than me, I wouldn't want to be awake for 1 second. Even normal dentist appointments, when he only looks at my teeth, scares me so much...

But I guess you have to be brave because it has to be done to protect your other teeth. I really hope that the procedure will be as close to painless as it can be and that you'll be happy afterwards with your new teeth.

Wish you nerves of steel! - Julian

Ursula Preiss said...

I do need nerves of steel. This is the right metaphor.

I think I can stand pain. There is always a risk, of course. I hope that the result will be good. I hope that all the pain will be worth it.

Flutter said...

What a shock that must have been, I'm glad you have a decent dentist to help you through the whole process.

Ursula Preiss said...

It is still a shock. Only slowly I realize what will happen.

I think the dentist is very good, even though he is new to me. My former dentist has not the possibilities to make implants. I trust the new dentist.

Debb said...

You have had, what I call, a "life shock".. Once accepted, anything in life can be easy. Accepting what is, is often the major struggle. You know you can handle discomfort with your many "tools" of relaxation. When I have a life shock, I like to ask myself what are my thoughts, fears about this and then evaluate each of them as "true"(this will happen) "false" (this will NOT happen) or "don't know". All the false and don't know items get let go.. bye bye.. why worry about what you know may not happen or possibly may not even happen.. I do this often if awoken in the night "thinking" and pondering about something in the future. We must be fans of reality, as Eckhart Tolle says. It is what it is, one of the best mantras ever.
I will think of you on my mat, sending you energies of courage, strength, acceptance, dear U..

Ursula Preiss said...

I love the expression "fan of reality".
Yes, this is a life shock.

Once the teeth are out one cannot make it undone. This is then so for eternity.

I make a list of my fears and questions for sure.
It will probably be the middle or the end of May till the surgery. I've still some time to get used to the thought. Till then business as usual: inhaling, exhaling,.......(hahaha).
Thank you Debb for your tips and for sharing your experiences.

Dan Chen said...

I've been through so many dental surgeries over the years that it's practically like those first few sun salutations where your body eventually loosens. What has helped me during the most recent surgery is focusing on the breath - so simple yet so difficult. Good luck with your oral health!

Ursula Preiss said...

Thank you Dan, I think this will be my strategy, too. I'll focus on my breath and I'll make a pranayama session out of it. :)

Globie said...

I'm so sorry to hear your news. Even when we look after our teeth you still are not immune from this kind of infection. My teeth have been the bane of my life. For that many teeth coming out at the same time I would consider the general anaesthetic. Good luck

Ursula Preiss said...

To be honest Globie, I want to be present. I want to have a bit of control what's happening with me.

A general anaesthetic kills too many brain cells. It's an additinal risk, that I want to avoid.

We both will be in top form soon. Me perhaps a bit later than you....:)

Globie said...

It's a wonder I have any brain cells left, I've had general anaesthetic 6 times now!

It's going to be months until i can even start to practice again and will take me a very long time to get my practice back to where it was last December, if I ever get back to that level.

Ursula Preiss said...

Wow, 6 times!!!! This is a lot.

Kev, can you not do paschimottanasana and ohter hip opening asanas?

And of course you'll get back to your level. Trust here. You know the techniques. Breathe, the rest is just bending....

Globie said...

Yes two x my extra thumb, 1 x my neck, 1 x my hip, all in childhood, then two years ago my wrist and this year my broken arm, so 6 times I go to sleep after they wish me sweet dreams!

I have tried some of the forward bends like Janusirsasana and Baddha Konasana, I cannot go very far because my arm becomes painful, I feel better doing hanging forward bends like. Prasarita, where my arm can just hang.

I hope you are right about my practice but it feels a very long way off

Diana said...

Oh my good, I can feel with you. I had the same diagnosis. But only one tooth had to be extracted. They pulled it out last Friday. I don't feel comfortable with the idea of missing one tooth. But it was the only chance to safe bone for setting an implant. But I will habe to give the bone time to recover again, so most propably my dentist will start in about 6 or 7 months to set the anker of the implant. This means one year with a missing back tooth in the upper part. I am also practicing ashtanga yoga. So I hope my practice will guide me and give me self confidence in this matter. I wish you good luck and hope you will eecover soon! Kisses

Ursula Preiss said...

Thank you for commenting, Diana. I'm very interested in similar stories. They give me self-confidence that I do the right thing

Yeah. you'll be strong. It's hard to have a gap in the front teeth. Yet it's temporarily!!!!! It will probably also influence your speaking. Don't care. You're on your way to save your teeth. The worst thing in my view is to have teeth to take out.

Good luck for you! Kisses. :)