The body doesn't show every day the same strength and flexibility.
The mind can even change faster. From one second to the next the mood can change without any reason. I consider myself as relatively balanced, nevertheless also I experience from time to time different states of my mind. A few days ago a man asked me: "Why do you not go back to your well-paid job as an accountant. There is a need on the market." Good that I've found someone whom I could blame for my bad mood yesterday. I'm writing a book, I answered. But I don't write every day. Why ever. A reason/excuse why I don't write is quickly found. This character of one of the last Woddy Allen movies comes into my mind when I'm thinking of my volatile writing activities. This man of this movie wrote one bestseller but he couldn't repeat this. He stole the book of his friend in the end only to have anything to publish. I've still my own ideas, but I'm so lazy sometimes I think, so undisciplined, so doubtful.
I will be poor when I'll be old, I thought, very poor. Nobody will hire me anymore. I will have to work 45 hours every week for an apple and an egg and I won't have time anymore to practice yoga. I'll only have to work to have something to bite and even this will be difficult. I'll be desperate. I won't be able to buy new glasses for my weak eyes. I don't want to mention how my teeth will look like when neglected because lack of money. Ruminant thoughts sometimes lead to low energy and I was even too lazy to prepare dinner yesterday: I wrote an email to my bf: Do you want to eat at home? We're an old couple and he understood my question. Let's go out, he answered. :) This bettered my mood at once.
I don't take my moods so seriously anymore. That's how life manifests, I think. Thoughts come up all the time. Sometimes they are with nice contents, sometimes with contents that bother me and make myself doubt about what I'm doing. This weakens me. It will pass, it will pass I console myself then. Thoughts are not the reality.
Ashtangis have learned to compass the mind.
- Daily I exercise to focus on the breath. This is a technique that can be useful when the thinking mind becomes strong and disturbing.
- Knowing that thinking positively (I can) is more helpful than thinking negatively. I exercise this on my mat, too.
- Another technique is to observe and to let go. Thoughts are nothing but thoughts. They come and go. I welcome them and I say good -bye to them after having enjoyed them or after having cursed them. Observing the mind can be exercised when meditating.
- Sometimes music lifts up the mood.
- Most of the time one only has to wait. Only change is permanent. Knowing this is consoling, too.
Ashtanga yoga is a tool to better life, Mr Swenson described Ashtanga yoga. I agree. Techniques for the mind exercised on the mat can be applied in daily life. The mind is often neglected because the asanas are so seductive beautiful and it's fun to work on them. Last but not least - body and mind are one unit. We exercise also the mind on the mat.
We tried a new Italian restaurant yesterday. It was rustical and very good: nice service, best food. This morning I overslept. At 8:30 I opened my eyes. Shall it be so, I think. I got up and looked into the mirror and realized that I've few more grey hair in my eyebrows. This made me laugh.
Primary today: There is a lot to do. The vinyasas need extra love and repetition. On the picture upavishta konasana can be seen. I integrated this asana in my daily life. I sit in this position when I'm reading a book. That way I hope I can improve this pose. The chin shall touch the floor without giving up the straight back.
Peace of mind can be experienced despite all the ups and downs, turbulences and joys, when it's possible to accept what is because so it is how life manifests in this Ursula-thing.
Everything out of my control, how entertaining.
Action now. The sun is shining and I feel a lot of energy. :)