Where does the time go?
This is the question of all questions.
Yesterday I got up early, between 6am and 7am.
As usual I switched on my PC, checked my emails, conversed a bit. This is what I like to do. One reason why I didn't like to have a 9 to 5 job anymore was (and 9 to 5 is never true as it is without commuting time and without the extra hours that are expected) because I had no time for friends anymore. Lately I heard from a friend who also gave up his job, that due to a very demanding job he lost his wife (divorced), but also his friends, because there was no time anymore to meet or to exchange emails or to chat. I know what he was talking about. Now he works independently, gained a bit of weight (hahaha) is happy and stays in contact with his friends worldwide.
At 8:30 I left my home for yoga. Yepeee. Yoga is another reason why I don't want to have fixed working hours. I looked at my watch, yesterday I didn't talk much before yoga, but of course to change clothes takes some time. The next time when I looked at the watch it was after second series before navasana and it was 11am. That's how it is. From arriving to the studio till leaving it 2 hours go away, 2 wonderful hours. Navasana, changing clothes again, walking to the S-Bahn, getting home without delay of course and quickly it was almost 12. On my way home I stopped at a grocery store to get some food for E and me.
At home chores had to be done. E had left the home after me, so I had to make the bed first, put some things at the right places, prepared lunch for myself, ate healthy stuff and unhealthy stuff too. It's a good habit to clean the dishes afterwards, so I did that, too, brushed my teeth, and then I felt tired.
Yes, then I felt tired and I went to bed for a nap
I slept perhaps 30 min when the phone rang. First I thought this can only be E. I don't make so many phone calls anymore, but Monday is his very busy day. I was glad that I said my full name when I picked up the phone. I got a job offer. So I sent my updated cv. I was glad that I said I only wanted to work 30 hours per week. To work form 12 to 5 should be possible. Let's see what will happen, I'm indifferent as tax/law offices are the worst places to work for an accountant. I prefer companies. I'm always willing to get surprised, the yes is closer to me than the no. It's not necessary to make a decision at such an early phase. I was still tired and went to bed again. I didn't like to think, soon I slept again so incredible deep. I woke up at 4:30pm. OMG.
Black coffee brought me back into this world. I checked my mails, ha and met a friend online, conversed a bit, answered emails. The postman brought a parcel for one of my neighbours. Before I could do much E arrived at home.
I see there is a gap between 4:30pm and 7pm. I took a bath, this I can remember. The afternoon is the time where I must be prolific, 5 hours minimum. I strolled around with E after his dinner. I appreciate this time with him very much. This was it.
What I have not done was taking some yoga pictures of myself. I need those for my blog, this blog.
I haven't written anything. There is nothing really relevant I've done.
I told E during our walk how it happens that I have no time. He said I should enjoy it. Somehow I also do it. To feel pressure is something else. I'm relaxed which amazes me a lot. Life happens, I think. More prolific times will come. Please shall they come.
But there is also this part of me, that wants to create something, do something. I also have to!!! There is this little nagging part in me, that tells me again and again not to waste so much time doing nothing.
A possible structure of my day: Up at 6, on my mat for yoga at 9. Working hours from 3pm to 7pm. Reading time in the evening. I will set my alarm clock today. This schedule only has to become a habit, then it's easy to follow it.
I'm not lazy, the course not, my days only need some modifications.
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