I set the alarm clock at 8 a.m., as it was late yesterday, when we came home from the party. I wanted to have at least 7 hours sleep. I talked (and listened) a lot, most of the time with a woman from the US. She spoke perfectly German with almost no accent. We talked about globalization, shares, writing. The evening was too short to talk to everybody.
At 8 a.m. this morning I got up for my morning pages and my yoga practice. My Ashtanga practice started so hopefully. 5 wonderful suryas a, break, 3 nice suryas b, break. Then I started with the standing sequence. The standing asanas are a balancing exercise. Today I trembled in parivritta trikonasana. But I could hold the poses without falling out of them.
After prasarita padottanasana d I got hungry. I stopped my practice went into the kitchen and ate a banana, raisins, some cheese and dried mangoes. Now I can really stop. It has to be a longer break now, my stomach is full. Why was it so important to go into the kitchen?
I will practice again, but now I have to wait.
But that's what I observe for a while now. The body is easier to handle than the mind. There is pain from time to time, sometimes the body is stiff, sometimes not. But that's all. The body is learning, slowly, but learning. The greater challenge is the mind. It always wants to do something else. When I'm on the mat I consider to eat. When I blog I want to be on my mat, I could go on and on.
How to train the mind, that's the question for the coming time.
I remember what I've read in one of Iyengar's books. He wrote that the body is heavy and slowly, while the mind is the opposite, fast, light. To bring them both together is the task. But how? How to bring the mind to the mat, how to stay there. I have to make it very interesting for my mind.
Distracted as my yoga is my writing. Often I delete sentences that I've written in my blog, because I jump from one subject to the next. I see it in my morning pages and on the mat as well. It is difficult to stay focused. For my morning pages I can accept it, because the goal is just to write whatever comes to mind. But I don't like it if I'm so distracted on my mat.
All is relative of course. I have a colleague, who is not able to do one wire transfer without interrupting himself several times in order to tell anything. There is no focus, no concentration at all. But do I really want to compare myself with him. No. I only want to relativize my lack of focus for myself.
Writing this I also can see that one step forward is at first 2 steps back. At first I was so busy learning the sequence. I even was not able to do some asanas at all. I was busy to look up the asanas in my book by Swenson. I struggled with individual asanas just to perform it. Till now I do not know all the asanas by name. And now another huge dimension is on my mat. The mind. I train my body for 3 years now, but what have I done for the mind? Almost nothing. It needs attention. I will look for special exercises for my mind. Very important.