The vacuum that was created last summer starts filling in so many ways. Exciting ways, wonderful ways. Why am I so reluctant! Why do I not accept that the past is over. Why do I not say "yes" to all these exciting offers. It is not possible to look into the future while looking into the rear mirror. The past is over. Let go. Grgghhh. I should do some space clearing, a symbolic act. I am clinging, this is not good.