I need a break from sleeping. My skin is hot, I have fever. My throat hurts awfully in other words I am ill. I thought I couldn't sleep again, but I can. I only take a break from sleeping. My self-made winter socks warm my feet.
When I am ill I always know that I need a break. I need to withdraw a bit before everything can go on. again. I fear this b-party is in my mind. It drives me crazy. I will be able to handle it with calm, I just tell myself.
Back to bed. I am alone and so I allow myself to express a bit self-pity: I so wanted to practice today. But I need sleep. Bed I am coming.