Saturday, November 29, 2008

Also this is not my act of volition

I am likely to sit under the Christmas tree of my parents this year again. This became clear after the phone call today. My mother is already planning the cakes that I shall eat, my bf awaits me to come to the North to continue the Christmas party a few days later. It seems impossible to withdraw from this Christmas thing. I like daily life, I am even proned to say I prefer it.

After these Indian and birthday troubles with my parents I had other plans for me. I saw me already preparing a 3 course menue for me here in my clean and decluttered shanty on Christmas Day. Alone I would be. Happy, perhaps a bit melancholy. Exotic food I would have served myself. No chance. Routine like every year will happen. It might be better not to plan anything as it is not possible anyway. Deeds are done, events happen.




6 comments:

Noodlegirl said...

I know exactly how you feel believe me!

Ursula said...

Thanks.
This post sounds so unthankful.
I can also be alone - this is what it expresses, too.

All the best for you.

Allure - must test it. I like parfums, especially those from Chanel. :)

Kevin said...

Its why I try to get away each year. Unless you are religious or have young children Christmas has less and less meaning with every passing year, its just another day.

Noodlegirl said...

Its not ungratful trust me I am still fantazing my alone time!

Tracy said...

I think that sometimes it is such a chore..to have to please everyone on the holidays by showing up, as it is our "duty" (at least that is what i feel) then I realize that one day they won't be with us any longer..and so, I relish the time with them and try to put it in another perspective. It is just another day, true, but families most always have that day off, so it is a time to gather and catch up and spendthe day with one another~
and gain weight :0(...!!
xxoo

Ursula said...

Dear Tracy,
You are so right and this is also one of my thoughts. Our life is limited and how often will we able to see our families. To come together when everybody is still in good health is something good, too.
So I didn't show any resistance and I will go and I will enjoy the good food of my mother. :) knowing what it means to eat it all.