I knew that they would come - the problems, the obstacles.
I was so in love with my own joy, that I spreaded the news about my Inian trip. Whoever wanted to hear my plans and also those who didn't like to hear it got the information. My trip to India, my yoga that's my favourite topic.
I was weak and vulnerable, then aggressive. So aggressive. (Who wants to stop me?)Energy, yes, but lost energy. I didn't use it for something productive. OK, I started cleaning the bathroom. So much energy was felt that I even cleaned the bathtube and the walls. Washing machine is cleaning some clothes now, too.
Nobody shall reduce my joy and adventurous mood. I do not allow it anymore.
It was as if I was sliding down a slippery playground slide, so fast, I couldn't hold me. The collision was hard and astonishing.
Again I stand with both legs on this earth. Why should anything be easy for me?
Now I'm careful again, reasonable. Sad. I like me when I'm exuberant.
(For the courious reader: I'm not talking about my bf, he supports me.)
To do list:
1.It must happen this week. I need a flight. Thursday is a good day to search the internet. Tomorrow I will have Mysore class.
2.I can cheque the exchange rate in order to get used to the currency.