I can scarcely speak, voice disappeared (but I can still write. :)).
I didn't feel my lotus pose in meditation practice today. That's wonderful, because then I really can concentrate on the mental task. The right seat is important, I think. To hang on the sofa isn't the right meditation position. The 15 min were over rather quick today.
I practiced, respecting my body. I'm ill, I faced it. But I can go to work, too. A moderate practice can be good, I thought. The practice turned out to be a wonderful one.
Forward bends. That's what I needed today. To bend forward as a sign that there is also thankfulness felt for everything I get.
The body was transparent, no resistance was felt, so I could go rather deep into the poses. Upward facing dog became a focus. Perhaps this is the reason why urdhva dhanurasana was so good today. I lifted my body up three times and it was not as painful as usual. Here, too no mental resistance was felt. I just did it.
This wonderful practice today made me forget that I have to go to work. I managed it to establish a self-practice, perhaps one day I will have the courage and confidence to work more on my own business than to seek shelter in corporate companies. My job is difficult. After 7 hours of sleep I think that I won't go on my own, I will make it difficult for them. Difficult is relative, because I only have a contract for one year. They can decide very easily if they want to work with me for further years or not. Till then I will do what I can do, even if it is not that much. It's difficult to see that it doesn't matter what I'm doing, that each situation is only consciousness, energy, movement.
I would like to stay at home, even if this would mean that I have to clean my home today.