It was easy to find a title today. I'm tired - I start the week tired and I want to stay in bed for the rest of the week. :)
I got up on time, wrote my morning pages and then I meditated. It was an emotional roller coaster. It can only get better, I thought, but firstly my legs were dump and then I felt the pinholes. But as soon as the blood was running freely for a while this stopped and I rolled out my mat. I did a few surya namaskaras, but soon I felt tired. I stopped yoga and I showered. The cold water at the end seemed to be very cold. I went to bed again. And there I still want to be. And there I want to stay till it is lunch time. But reasonable as I am I prepared another cup of black coffee to wake me up. It is not yet the time to sleep till lunch time.
The week can start. I will be pressed out like a citron. And I will try to lie to myself - pretending that this is fun. Either the current situation will teach me to accept what is or it will teach me to look for alternatives. I shall see. Perhaps I get used to this tour for oxes ( I know this is a German expression which cannot be translated, but I haven't found another word for my working days for the time being). I don't want to work on Saturday anymore. The weekend is for relaxation. This means I will have to work at least 10 hours today. OMG. I'm a celebrity, get me out of here.
I want something sweet for breakfast today.